Am I Back?

Shucks, this is awkward. I feel it has been ages since I last wrote anything on this blog. I checked the last post, it was in April. Seven months. It's been like years.

Rusty and melodramatic, I know. But I just feel emotional writing again. I'm having mixed emotions as I write these words. Not sure if I should be happy I'm back at it or sad because I feel like I lost my touch, my flair.

I still could not figure out why I stopped writing. I remember I had several drafts done but none of which I published. Sadly, I'm not sure if I'd still want to do so. What I know is a part of me is a writer, and a part of me is saying I should just keep it to myself.

Perhaps, this is a start... breaking in, I suppose...

The Journey

It was my birthday on March 24. I celebrated it at home, with my family. Had crabs and shrimps for lunch and my fave pancit for merienda. Despite the humid weather, I decided to lounge and just be lazy at home. To pass the time, I watched all 13 episodes of Project Runway 5. I started at around Noon and ended at 9:30 in the evening. It was fun!

I'm 35. And it's sweet to look back and say to myself that I've come a long and way -- nine years happily married to my best friend, enjoying life with my eight-year old daughter, worked with five good companies, halfway-through my MBA, etcetera… the journey has been worthwhile.

In the next few weeks I'm embarking on another journey… I've resigned from my job in the hope of another encounter, hopefully better. And I'm anxious. Though I haven't found another career home yet, I know I will soon. Thanks to all my loved ones who continuously support and pray that I get the best. I thought it would never happen but I did it, I let go of something familiar, something comfortable, something I thought I would be with for a long time. Maybe it's just me, I stand by my values and beliefs. I refuse to be swayed with what I know I'd never be happy with. This is the main reason I've come to a decision to leave the company I am with now. It sure is sad but that's just the way it is.

I've learned a lot of lessons in five-year stay with "the company" -- some hard, some even harder. I have many good memories of events, people, friendships, arguments, challenges, celebrations, and I'll bring them along with me and use them as ammo in my next "life project". I'm on my way to making it happen again… this time even better.