Third month of the year...I turned 34 this March. I celebrated it intimately with my family - My Love, My Princess, and our Nanay. It was good timing because it was the Holy Week before my birthday so I took a much needed rest for six full days. Ah, how wonderful to be away from the corporate jungle. Not to mention the dinosaurs, dementors, and what-have-you's on the side out of sight! LOL! Seriously, I used the time to reflect on what I want to do next with my career. And I guess the answers are slowly showin' itself. Maybe in the next few days it will fully manifest and I'm positively hopeful.
I'm not exactly sure if you would call it mid-life crisis but there's this longing for wanting to be whole and not getting it from where or what I feel I should be getting it from somehow frustrates me. I don't know, I have been feeling sluggish, perhaps distracted, that I can't focus on the usual things I used to be so passionate about. I guess this is because things aren’t meant to happen. I know I'm sounding vague here. Oh well, I have other more important things to allot my energy on, so I guess I really need to move forward. 'Nuf said.
I have a lot to be thankful for. First of all, my very supportive, loving, and not-to-mention hunk-of-a-guy hubby, Nald.
Through the thick and thin of things (that includes me, tee-hee!), he's always beside me, guiding me along the way.
I'm not the easiest person to live with, I have my quirks, my radical ideals, and my innate stubbornness and I applaud Nald for taking it all in stride. I love you more, My love. I also thank My Princess daughter, Aleksis Rae, I have been discovering and learning a lot of things from her even if she's just seven. I'm not the perfect Mom to her but she loves me unconditionally, sigh! Mwah, mwah! And lastly, for being my ultimate inspiration and strength, I thank my Mom.
March was also a discovery month. I've learned that some people are not who they seem they are and through situations that happened in the past, I'm glad their true colors surfaced. That's why I cherish the friendship I have with the following: OO (the best professional mentor and sincerest friend), Quellay (first and closest friend I had since I got here in Manila), and The Lemonaders (Krissy, Heather, Dimples, and Alexish). I maintain only the fewest friends in my inner circle, but damn they're the best!
Another year of lease in life... I am determined to make things better -- guide My Princess in her course through learning and enjoying life; be a more caring and supportive wife and partner to My Love; reach out and spend time with my Mom and Dad (I feel so guilty about this...); discover my true passion & calling in my profession and pursue it; best of all, achieve to be whole -- spiritually, emotionally, and psychologically. I can't believe I said that, I sounded like a looney, LOL!
I received my Weekly Kabbalah Inspiration email the other day and part of the message was this:
“If there is pain and struggle in your life, then remind yourself of the picture puzzle. Remember the Light is there, perfect, and that you asked for the sweat on your brow simply so that you could feel the satisfaction of being a Creator. And know that whatever you are struggling with will have a positive result. It might take all week, all month, all year - or as long as your karmic process requires - but if you keep applying what you are learning, you will eventually see - in all its perfection - the picture that is your precious life.”
Well, what do you know! The guy upstairs has answered my question... very aptly, indeed.
